I am a regular lurker of blogs and discussion boards. I don't generally post comments or "follow" anyone. I read a blog fairly regularly in which the blogger uses incorrect punctuation and grammar. It makes me nutty, but I keep reading because she reminds me of the notes we used to pass in high school. Last week sometime, she did an entry into her blog that has been on my mind this week. She used the ABC's and described her life. You know... A is for Awesome Family! It was fun to see how she used the letters XYZ! Here is my attempt to do the same only using FIBROMYALGIA and my life with it:
F - Fibro Fog. The Double F. The other "F" word. Forgetfulness. Another F word that can describe the Fibro Fog.
I - Insomnia. So, Fibromyalgia is a smorgasbord of catch 22's. If you are tired the fibro pain is worse. But, as the pain increases the less you sleep. When I was younger, sleep was my favorite hobby. Now, I am lucky if I get 5 uninterrupted hours a night.
B - Bitch. I feel like that is all I do. Complain. I used to enjoy complaining when I needed to get things off my chest. Now, all the joy is gone from that hobby. So what? I hurt today. Just like yesterday. Nothing new. Joy - gone.
R - Relief. There is none. Ha!
O - Obsessive. My state of mind when I am in pain. I am obsessive about the pain or any relief (ha!) I can find. Which only makes things worse for the fatigue and the pain.
M - Massage! They feel so very good! Every Fibro patient needs multiple!
Y - Yikes! Everyday, that is a word that goes through my brain as I try to unbend from a position I have been in too long. Yikes! Those muscles HURT!
A - I am ABLE to cope with this. And that is a great realization that I have had recently. It sucks. But, I can do it!
L - This is a LIFE LONG LIFE style change. Get used to it!
G - Weight GAIN. Just what every woman wants. But, that is a side effect. You get so fatigued and you hurt so bad, moving is not an option, never mind exercise.
I - Irritating. That's all.... it is irritating! And not just for me, I am sure. For everyone that gets to deal with the Fibro me.
A - Fibromyalgia may be with me for the rest of my life, but it AIN'T going to rule my life! Hell Ya!